Hi Guys,
It's 1:30 AM on 17.4.2012
I am tired but not so tired that I would go to sleep; I got up and played some SC2 (in gold now which is nice) but even that didn't tire me; my son woke up @ 12.42 he wanted his dummy (6 months old now).
I was driving in the car today with him in his carseat; I looked back and relised that I had to drop him at daycare, this made me a little bit sad. It's not the first time that I have had to drop him at daycare, it's not the last. I don't know what it was today, but I just didn't want to let him go, it's weird 6 months ago this wasn't an issue for me I would've been all like pfft it's not that hard just do it. God my life has changed in 6 months/15 months/18 months.
6 months ago I didn't have my son/15 months ago my girlfriend wasn't pregnant/18 months ago I didn't have a girlfriend.
It's weird to look back on just how quickly and slowly at the same time it's happened, I remember counting the days until he was born, but my gosh have 6 months flown. I remember wondering if I would ever have a girlfriend, let alone a child, but my gosh have 18 months flown. I was young back then, not that I am old now, but I have once again matured, stepped into the next stage of my life. It makes me happy that I have a family now it changes everything, nothing I do is for myself anymore, everything is for them. It makes me happy to do everything for them.
If I could I would make their wildest dreams come true just to see the smiles and enjoyment on all their faces, alas I need time to work on that. I will make it happen I can assure them of that. I often wonder what the future holds for me, what crossroads it will throw up, what decisions I will be given, what roadblocks I will have to endure. At the moment I enjoy each day that I spend with my family, this is the only thing I know will continue into the future.
My family mean the world to me; I would not be the person that I am today without them.
Ryan
way to make me cry bro xx
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